Wednesday, September 3, 2008
But the junk she sent home is another thing altogether. She sent chips (my weakness) along with all the carbie stuff like potato salad and beans etc. I did eat some chips, but I'm trying to eat very small portions and balance them with protein.
The good news is the cute doctor called back and said my blood glucose was 98, perfectly normal. (For pregnant women, they say under 95, but hey, that's pretty darned close!) The problem with that is, I have a tendency to start getting lax, once I hear numbers.
I need Harley to get new test strips, so I can keep testing. I'm out, and when I'm not testing, I'm nowhere near as diligent as I should be.
Next week is the baby-doctor appt. If things go as well as they have been, I'll start interviewing home birth midwives soon. Hard to believe it's only three more weeks to the end of the first trimester!
Friday, August 29, 2008
Now I just have to wait for my OB appt a week from Tuesday.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Well, hello, blog!
I got mad at Harley for not writing here, and in my usual way, just gave up on the whole thing. If he wasn't going to do it, why should I? Can you say codependent, boys and girls? I knew you could!
So what am I doing back there again after 6 months? Well, I got back up to 285... go figure. And we kept trying to get pregnant. And finally, it stuck. I found out about a month ago. I'm due April 8, 2009.
And of course I was thrilled. And renewed my vow to get healthier while I was pregnant. But that's hard to do when you're packing up an entire house for a second move in a year's time. Yeah, we needed a bigger house and a room for the baby, but did I need more stress? That would be a big fat NO, thankyouverymuch...
So about 2 weeks ago, just for chucks and giggles, I checked my blood sugar. Harley's diabetic and has all the testing equipment (not that he ever, ever tests... he doesn't... it just sits there... so I thought, well, someone should use it!) Poked my finger, checked out the results...
183. After eating Taco
EEK! So the next day, I vowed to be "good."
1 hour after breakfast (oatmeal made with milk): 130
1 hour after lunch (tuna fish sandwich and a glass of milk): 132
2 hours after dinner (tuna on toast, glass of milk): 114
Hmm. 103 is a high fasting. It should be under 95 (especially for pregnant women.) The other numbers weren't tooooo bad - should be under 140 one hour after you eat and under 120 two hours after you eat.
The next day's numbers were interesting, too:
Fasting: 120 (ouch!)
1 hour after breakfast (oatmeal made with water - we were out of milk): 150 !!!
But look at this:
1 hour after lunch (4 oz. steak): 94
Well then... looks like it's the carbs. Even "good" ones like oatmeal, that aren't tempered with protein. It's official - I'm pre-diabetic.
The question now is... is it enough? Is it enough to get me to stop slowly killing myself with food? Is the thought of a child with congenital anomalies enough to make me stop? Is
heroin food more important to me than that... than anything?
Because after I discovered my sugars were elevated, I started doing the research, and it's not good. Women with pre-diabetes and undiagnosed diabetes have a risk of having babies with birth defects - specifically heart and neural tube abnormalities.
So now I'm opting for all the genetic testing - the neural translucency scan, the quad screen, the whole she-bang. Because I didn't catch this, really, until I was about 6 weeks along - and by that time, the heart was already formed and beating. And I know if my sugar was 183 after Taco
In the past two weeks, I've gone from 285 to 272. But that's rather irrelevant, considering. I've been checking my sugars, and for the most part, they've been fine, except for my fasting number, which is always borderline-highish. But I've cut out sugar entirely. No more junk food, no more fast food, no more regular soda. No more carbs in the form of white bread, rice, pasta, potatoes.
Two weeks. Only ... 223 days to go. :x
I honestly don't know if I can make it...
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Friday, February 1, 2008
Thursday, January 31, 2008
1. The significance of a man is not in what he attains but in what he longs to attain. - Kahil Gibran
2. If you don't know where you are going,you'll end up someplace else. - Yogi Berra
3. We can always redeem the man who aspires and strives. - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
4. In absence of clearly defined goals, we become strangely loyal to performing daily acts of trivia. - Author Unknown
5. There are two things to aim at in life; first to get what you want, and after that to enjoy it. Only the wisest of mankind has achieved the second. - Logan Pearsall Smith
6. Life can be pulled by goals just as surely as it can be pushed by drives. - Viktor Frankl
7. The only journey is the journey within. - Rainer Maria Rilke
8. Insist on yourself. Never imitate. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
9. Everybody wants to be somebody;nobody wants to grow. - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
10. If we all did the things we are capable of,we would astound ourselves. - Thomas Edison
11. Our truest life is when we are in dreams awake. - Henry David Thoreau
12. The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up. - Paul Valery